I love butter, not like the eat it right out of the package kind of love, but I believe that butter adds so much to so many things, that margarine just wont do.  I am a diet guru, I know everything there is to know about losing weight and nutrition, although I am still 50 lbs overweight, at least I am knowledgeable!  The one thing that I will never, have never wavered on, is the need for butter in almost everything.  I have greatly reduced my use of butter because of the wonderful world of weight watchers, so I have moved on over to real good, expensive butter.... Irish butter, fresh churned butter, Sea Salted butter from Maine, whatever I stumble upon in the grocer.  I use it sparingly, but I never trade it in, oil or margarine just wont do.  There is nothing like the glimmer of butter melted on top of vegetables or the rich yellow color embedded into a delicious baked potato.  Butter is and always will be the base of almost everything that I cook.  I love butter, not the eat it right out of the package kind of love, but love that never wavers, never replaces and always remembers its value. :-)

Actual Day One!

So it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be.  Although, I had a delicious steak salad (1/2) and a yummy taco salad (1/2) for dinner, so really who could complain.  I am a little headachey and even though I was not going to split my lean and green meal until I was OP for a few days, my Aunt Flo is coming to visit so I really needed it today so I wouldnt kill anybody..... The oatmeal wasnt bad at all but the shake was a tad chalky... I think I can do this... I really think that it will be ok.

Day one - Week one

Tomorrow is the first day of the start of the rest of my life.  Or at least I hope so.  Tomorrow I start on a weight loss journey that I hope will be the last.  I am all in, and truly believe that this will be it for me.  I am excited and nervous and looking forward to seeing where this new road will take me.  I have 9 months until my 40th birthday - I refuse to walk into my forties a fat girl... I plan to write as much as I can mostly to remind me all along the way, just how important this is and how unimportant food should be in my life.

Football

I love football.  The thrill of the game, the complexity, the men in tight pants.... its all incredibly thrilling. I'm involved in a football pool of which after several weeks at #1, have most certainly been bounced.  It just so happens to be on the very same night my husband is going 11-0 right now and has spent the entire afternoon throwing it in my face.  I can take it - truly - and why not, he deserves a win.... the douche bag.....

Exercise

When I am exercising every day, I love the way it makes me feel.  I have energy and happiness and feel great about myself, but when I am not - I think its the worst thing in the world!! I took a head to toe class today and can feel it in every muscle in my body.  And I still want to go to yoga tonight..... weird. Anyway,  I am reading this book called the rules of normal eating.  Its pretty interesting. I am started to unlearn some of my past behaviors that affect the way I eat.  This is huge... I am a complete emotional eater and push my emotions aside a lot, so its great to learn how eat like normal folk ;-)  Well off to yoga ;-)

Dogs

The funny thing about dogs is that they love you no matter what.  You can do all sorts of things to them and they are still loyal.  I guess there are some guys out there like that, but wouldn't that drive you bananas???? If your dog follows your every command you are like awesome, I am a great pet owner, if your man did, you'd be like whats wrong with you woman??? I have no idea why I find that funny, but I do.